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It's rough, it's amateur,
BUT IT'S OUT! I'm more than proud of myself for releasing
THE BASEMENT SET

We put some of my stuffed animals on my dresser for the background. Green-Tie and Miss Bunny were gifts :-)

The Basement Set has been a vivid picture in my head ever since I wrote deathwish, which was my first song as VANNE. I've always envisioned the video with red lights and devil-horns. Having us release this my 20th birthday was just perfect! For me, this marks the start of a new era, both artistically and personally (you can read my ramblings below.)

This time last year, I would have never seen this happening. The me one year ago today would not have seen an original song, let alone three nor an actual passion project off the ground. If I didn't take the plunge, I probably would've seen myself focusing on my studies, having hit my artistic peak in high school then burying myself away into a "real" career. Then I'd reach old-age, and with the few extra years of free time I managed to work my younger years away for, pick up art again. Wow! What an amazing and fufilling life! Kidding of course.

THANK YOU!

Azumanga is sooo good!

On the menu is Adil! (when I refer to "we" this is who I mean lol) Thank you so much for dealing with me and my nonsense haha. On the shortest notice ever, Adil filmed this on the 10th of May. The nights that proceeded shooting, we called and edited. Editing would occur after my shifts, when my brain was fried by dust and salty snacks. That's only 5 evenings of cutting up and mushing together clips! Adil carried so hard. We both went a bit crazy listening to my songs over and over again. We are a great team!

For dessert, everyone who likes my art! Thank you so for liking what I do, even in this embroyonic and rough stage. I want to get better and you all help me reach that goal. If you also make art and have a way to contact me, I DO want to make stuff but have been too shy to say it this whole time... erm so check your messages sooner or later.

This whole project has filled a hole in my chest. One I've been chasing for years. I'd love to do it again sometime. :-)

~Lor

Deranged Ramblings >

On May

May last year SUCKED. SSSUUUCCCKKEEEDD. Really no other way to put it. Though, this is ALWAYS a bittersweet month for me. I think of precious birthday parties with friends. Then intense falling outs. May marks some of my loneliest days and some days I'd love to go back to and relive. It's a month full of whiplash that's for sure. For 2025, I want to flip the usual experience on it's head. May means ME. I've spent too long giving myself up, giving MY energy to OTHER people who clearly did not care if I was dead or alive. If one's goal is to help everyone but they don't even help themselves, they then can't say they're helping everyone.I usually doubt myself when I this line of thinking pops up. Isn't it selfish? Isn't it holy and righteous to go out of your way to help people, while giving yourself up? /(@_@)\ It's probably more of a "sacrifice" to slowly see *yourself* melt away as people, again and again, run you over and squeeze what they want out of you, with no care for your wellbeing. It won't be a pretty, earned way to go. It'll simply be a sad and pathetic death. Caring about yourself not selfish, it's the bare minimum. I'll shamelessly give myself some more self worth. One problem I have is not saying "no" or not knowing where to draw lines. This has CONSTANTLY led me down paths where I get used, and I'm stuck by the end hating myself because all I had to. So, here's to starting my 20s with some love, with the first toast going towards myself! Go me! ~☨
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